Sobriety isn't for pussies

I used to have that as my fifth day of the month calendar reminder. Now I have 'Sobriety Rules'. It seems less in your face. But, I reckon' you need in your face to trek out of the void. Sobriety rules, sobriety blows. I don't require the reminder but it is nice to have. A whisper to continue the push towards the never-ending finish line.

Go to meetings, talk to someone, don't drink, don't drink and don't drink. It is hard and you need people in your life who understand that. You need stability, you need yourself right now.

Don't give up. If you fall off. Get back up and get back on the wagon.

4.5.03 is my sober date. I gave up alcohol for Lent and never looked back. I sometimes think I can go back. But, I don't want to. I don't want to be that person I used to be.

I count my blessings, attend meetings and embarked on a steps tour. The later didn't go so well. I've wronged too many people and I don't want to apologize to them. It seems daunting, but Higher Power please help me.  That is my problem; I begrudgingly apologize. You have to apologize wholeheartedly and I was not able to do that.  Grudges were still held. "C'mon, I have to apologize to this person?" Hands crossed over my chest, pout-pout face.

Oh, well.

It's not easy sailing. Even 12 years in. With the Will and Grace of God, things are achievable. Oh, my Cher!

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A drunk is a drunk, is a drunk, say's the drunk. Don't be a drunk. I think more people don't drink, than drink. In this case do be the norm. I fear sometimes, I'll die by being run over by a beer truck. Some people hope to die that way.  Not this sober chick.  Tweet, tweet.