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What just happened? - a journal entry

The game started at 9 AM here. I've had 6 hours to process the end result. I am still raw. I think I might need another headache relief pill. I just need to cry and I'll be fine. I didn't openly weep in front of Marchand, yet. So I have that to look forward to. I watched WWE's "Blacklash" pay-per-view after the game. I thought, "I wonder if Jimmy Hayes is in the audience?" I watched Backlash with my three headed Mr. S items still facing the TV. Thank you to those who decided that Seth Rollins and Jeff Hardy should win their respectful bouts. Though it only dawned on me, half an hour ago, that it was Jeff Hardy that I saw win and not Broken Matt Hardy. See, I'm still in a haze. I also forgot my phone password and ATM code. Completely sober, just trying to come back to earth.

@brian5or6 (6 PM 5/6/2018) When I looked at the moon this evening, I whispered “Zdeno Chara”. I turned to go back in until I saw the moon drop one single tear #NHLBruins

Do you know how bad I am? I'm watching exit locker room interviews. I have to do this now.  I can't wait a week from now it will be worse then. Deal with this now so that I can move on. Fandom teaches you so much about love. I have a big heart especially for you, Dobs.

Khudobin please re-sign. They are going to win the cup next year and that makes me happy. Glass half-full. Thank you boyzzzzz, Thank you so much. Go Bruins!

INFINITE POTENTIAL. Always.




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Sobriety is a never ending process*
After the game I was texting my friend and I thought to myself, "I think I want a virgin lava flow". Which I don't want at all (sober: 15 years, 1 month and a day) and the darn thing doesn't even have alcohol in it. But neurotic me doesn't trust the bartenders enough to clean their equipment correctly/waitstaff to not remember to get me a virgin item. Then I guess I have to make one myself.  I just looked up a recipe for the drink. Yeah, it doesn't look so appetizing anymore. I live near a fruit boba tea place and I think I'll just go there tomorrow.

I went on Fanatics.com after the game and bought hockey cards, a Bruins shirt that may not arrive in time for my Mother's Day afternoon tea date and Bruins drink umbrellas. Which I hope doesn't make me a bad sober person. I have no idea what I'm going to use these umbrellas for. Stupid emotional roller coaster of emotions buying impulsive items. Insert swearing. Bleeping, eh I have to attend a meeting.

*As it damn well should be and it's a beautiful process with beautiful results.

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What I am working on for the next month. Less than a week to go!

Happy 2015, my love

Happy New Year! This is a 17 month old's hand print and a 35 year old painter. I wanted to go for "artistic" though it looks like the 17 month old painted it. I look at it and say to myself, "this is why I have my art degree". I love it.  

Great day so far. Last night I watched the 1995 Pride and Prejudice miniseries, while eating saimin. Fell asleep listening to DMB Live Trax 32. Woke up around 10 PM and read a bit of, one of my, favorite book series. Let's just say the female protagonist has just been bumped up to first class heading to Georgia. I love it! Fell back asleep.
Woke up, attended Mass, received some Mochi from a friend, played Animal Crossing (where I scored my 2015 Year of the Ram shirt), drank coffee, ate pizza and currently watching the Rose Bowl game. Spending the day with my favorite people.  Got a few hugs and kisses along the way. Truly, truly blessed. 

I learned how to spell "saimin" and that "lot's of pulp" in orange juice truly means a lot of pulp. I submitted my Good Reads reading challenge for 2015. Yeah, good stuff all around.

GB Cover

The Ghost In You

Psychedelic Furs

"Then an evening spent dancing
It's you and me
This love will open our world
From the dark side we can see a glow of something bright 
There's much more than we see here 
Don't burn the day away 
Is this not enough 
This blessed sip of life 
Is it not enough?  
Staring down at the ground 
Oh, then complain and pray more from above. 
Greedy little pig 
Stop just watch your world trickle away 
Oh it's your problem now 
It'll all be dead and gone in a few short years 
Just love will open our eyes 
Just love will put the hope in our minds
Much more than we could ever know 
Don't burn the day away" - Pig by DMB

"I'm coming back from the great beyond here".

A yellow balloon, rock music and chanting

Some see beauty in the sky.
Where voices meet in juxtaposition.
Doused with lemon, all for a good cause.
Another afternoon of comic books and afternoon tea.
Good night my love, good night.